getting back at it....

Well, I see it has been awhile since I wrote. Let's see, since then, there has been two youth camps (our family went to one and only dh and ds1 went to the other), and many many other things that I wish I could on about here, I can't. But, nevertheless, we can say, things have been exciting!!

Next week we have our first of two meetings for our association. Morning Light Home Association will give us more freedom in fundraising and doing some other community projects for families without too much gov't eyes. While we totally understand the gov't need to be involved, we minister in an area that they don't want the affects of it to be public. Does that make sense? Way back when attempting to start all this, we had the name "unwed mother's home" in our title. We found out later that that was not approved, yet they didn't come out and tell us, it was one of those things that they felt they didn't need to tell us.

I often feel like we are a "bad" dream to the gov't here. First, we are doing a work that they don't want to get involved in. Simple. Unwed mother's to them, are low in society. Social workers have been quoted as saying "if the mom is young, unmarried, pregnant and low income, I will only suggest abortion."-.-  That says alot doesn't it. Funny how the gov't knows what we are doing and social workers will say to a momma "go find Deana Pan at this number and address, if she can't help you then come back to us."LOL!!! At times I think they feel we will quickly go away. BUT they can say that in the last two years, they have had less than 5 abandoned babies. We work with the moms and she has a responsibility.

God is so wonderful to us. Each time we feel tired, exhausted, look at the lack of $$, God in HIS goodness shows us at the right time something else. This month alone (yes, I know we are not through July yet) we have counseled at least 2 moms a week. Some are sad stories and really put you into reality.  God is showing us, this is why you are here My child. There are women in need, women in crisis, women who say I don't know what to do, no one wants to listen to me, I can't tell my family I am pregnant............the list goes on. As we minister as God wants us to, in other areas, God is bringing up families and friends who are supporting us through material and financial needs. Our financial needs are great, there is no question about that. But God is letting us know little by little that HE is in control. We need to keep our focus on the ONE who holds tomorrow.

At times I have been afraid to post things. I am not one who is going to post baby pictures or momma pictures. I will though tell their stories. I had not posted because I know that there are people who feel they need to be our enemies. But God has been leading me, letting me realize...........All things work together for good to them that love him.....We rely on a God that owns the cattle on a thousand hills....He could sell a few and we would be fine:-).....really, all that to say..........I hope to share more as time allows. God is good, all is done for HIS glory, not done through me but through our mighty Savior Jesus Christ!!!!